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\"Cold <\/a>
Cold trees <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"Luke <\/a>
Luke in a box <\/div> <\/div>
\"Peppa <\/a>
Peppa Pig <\/div> <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"Star <\/a>
Star Wars <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"Green <\/a>
Green Winter <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"Light <\/a>
Light post <\/div> <\/div> <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>\nThe words use to flow quickly and easily. Scraps of paper, margins, notebooks, all covered with words\u200a\u2014\u200ait was really a kind of graphomania. One day I came to the conclusion that it was all just ridiculous noise and I put them away.<\/p>\n

Now I struggle to get any words out\u200a\u2014\u200aI squeeze and squeeze and only a few dribble out: stilted, insipid, characterless.<\/p>\n

I could blame the kids. Seven children is just crazy in this day and age. Friends, family, acquaintances, strangers; they all feel perfectly at ease informing me of my madness. It isn\u2019t easy.<\/p>\n

But I can\u2019t blame our counter-cultural life for my difficulty. The fault really lies in my mind.<\/p>\n

My thoughts are incoherent fragments: shattered safety glass. Hundreds of tiny dull fragments glisten on the pavement\u200a\u2014\u200aunable to make a point.<\/p>\n

Just like this week\u2019s collection of photos.<\/p>\n

Real life has this way of interrupting art-making plans. And then there is the perennial fear\u200a\u2014\u200awhy do this? What on earth difference could it make to me or anyone?<\/p>\n

The point is to just be. And to create. Not for anyone in particular\u200a\u2014\u200ajust because I enjoy doing it. I exist in a fog of demands from others and I don\u2019t mind serving them\u200a\u2014\u200athey are my joy.<\/p>\n

But in the end there does have to be some small space for me to create something beautiful as a way of thanking God for all I have.<\/p>\n

Maybe I am guilty of making it too mystical but, in truth, I think I\u2019m guilty of making it too mundane. As I\u2019m searching for that image or that word I need to remember in humility who uttered it first.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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